Written by Eric Blauer
God of grace, save us
Save us from….ourselves.
Save us from…each other.
Save us from…yesterday, today and tomorrow.
God of grace, save us.
Save us from…the our wrong paths.
Save us from…being more good than we should.
Save us from…being less good than we can.
God of grace, save us.
Save us from…trying to earn Your love.
Save us from…the pressure to perform.
Save us from…trying to fit in.
God of grace, save us.
-Eric Blauer 5.20.12
I believe this sums up my struggle as a mother, wife and any other role I try to take on as a woman. It is a beautiful portrayal of life and letting go.
Wow! So, it’s been a week and a half since my last blog. I promised myself I was gonna write more! Ah well, life gets in the way, and this week it certainly has! I normally don’t get to blog on Wednesday and Thursday nights because DH is on his weekend, so I naturally try to spend time with him, instead of being glued to my computer 🙂 However, this weekend I received some news (that I won’t go into here, for various reasons) that put me out of sorts more or less. Needless to say, it has been a very emotionally traumatizing week for me. I’m actually still recovering, but I have come around well enough to come back to my dear blog 🙂
In spite of my emotional roller-coaster, I *did* manage to FINALLY squeeze some time in to go and visit a dear friend of mine, Wendy, at Casa la Crazy (a befitting name, if I do say so myself, lol, obviously we fit in quite nicely). This is what happens when you are finally able to get together after a YEAR of trying!
You never can get all of the kids to look decent, so I figured they might as well just do what they naturally do anyway, lol!
It has been a crazy year for both of us. I am so very glad that we were finally able to hang out. There was a lot of laughter, an inordinate amount of crazy kid screaming and a few tears, but all in all, a great time was had. I can now chalk Wendy up to being one of my best friends and can’t wait to go and visit her beautiful and peaceful home (what? you don’t think it can be insane and crawling with kids and peaceful? well, you haven’t been looking in the right places!).
Well, I promised myself that I wasn’t going to be in the sun today, after having been in the sun all day yesterday, and waking in the middle of the night feeling sick and dizzy. Life had other plans for me, though.
I had called a friend who offered to rototill my garden a few weeks back. I was unable to have him do so at the time, since the bed wasn’t ready. Well, I managed to get some work done on it this weekend and so I called him today. There was still a pole to be removed and a large wooden crate thing leftover from where the chickens used to be, but I figured it might be a day or two before he could come. Oh no, he had time today and wanted to do it, which was totally awesome. Little did I realize how much effort that the simple pole (or so I thought) would take to remove. That thing was a beast! It took me probably two or three hours and the assistance of my children and a couple of friends to get that fiendish pole out of the ground! But, it is gone and my garden is tilled and my planties are waiting to find their way into their new home 🙂
This is Tom, from my church and from my neighborhood. He graciously offered to come over today with his rototiller to plow up my dirt. He thought it would take longer because it seemed hard and rocky, but he punched it right out and got it done in next to no time. He even told Caleb that he might let him do the tilling next year. Oh boy!
My little garden area, waiting to be planted.
Look at all of that lovely, luscious dirt! I wasn’t sure what I would end up with, but this dirt looks very rich and smells fabulous! I was afraid that it would be dry and rocky, but, as you can see, it is not.
This bench isn’t ours, it belongs to the family that lived with us over the winter, but the kids put it there this afternoon. I think it looks quaint, so I’ll keep it there until the family comes and gets it 🙂
Well! It has been a day!! I probably won’t say much tonight because I am exhausted.
So, my day started out not-so-pleasantly when I woke up and realized that I didn’t get my trash out, so I ran out to take care of that, in my pajamas (yes, I do my best to fit in here in the ‘hood) and barefooted. The barefoot part was not such a smart idea as I promptly ran over my toe with the trashcan, peeling the toenail back nicely. I won’t go into gory detail, but you get the idea.
But, my day proceeded to get better. We had a nice, family breakfast of cereal and prayed for Daddy as he was off to take his finals this week (HOORAY!!!!) I then sent hubby off to class for his first of three finals (after making him drive us over and get coffee, since we ran out of milk at breakfast).
I spent the rest of the morning reading Voyage of the Dawn Treader to the kids while monitoring the dogs in the front yard. They had been chomping at the bit to escape and finally got their chance when the kids were bickering over who was going to sit in the wheelbarrow. We walked around the neighborhood for about twenty minutes and had finally caught them, when I realized that it was time to go to the park.
I am loosely affiliated with a local homeschool Yahoo! group and I had gotten an email yesterday stating that they would be meeting at the park in my neighborhood. I have been unable to attend past park days due to me working on Mondays and more recently due to the theft of my husband’s car (@*$#@& car thieves). So, I was delighted that they would be so close, since my kids have been begging to see all of their friends. I’m glad I went. The moms tried to make me feel welcome and the kids had a blast. We are all now very red, but I feel happy to make my kids happy. And my Buggy got to give two of her friends invitations to her birthday party, and as a bonus, she got to go to her best friend’s house and have dinner with her and her dad. Mission accomplished.
We then finished up the day with dinner in a can (yes, we are so healthy around here), a couple of Star Trek the Next Generation episodes, and a couple more chapters from Dawn Treader. Yup, it was a good day indeed. I even managed to squeeze some laundry in at the end, go me!
So, I have been reading the Chronicles of Narnia to my kids at night and I am loving it. I am reading the stories in the order that they were written and right now we’re reading the third book: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. I love that my kids are now old enough to appreciate these stories.
I remember when my mom used to read to my brother and me. We read The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings and the Dragonriders of Pern and the Chronicles of Narnia and lots of other stories. I loved these times at night when my mom would read to us. We would all get our tea and settle down and she would read. We used to beg her to read “just one more chapter, please!!” Sometimes she’d comply, especially if we were at the end of the book. Other times we’d have to wait until tomorrow. She read to me until the time that I left for the military, and I think that that was the thing I was going to miss the most.
Those were such special times to me and I always wanted to carry the tradition on to my own children. I treasure these stories to this day, and I hope that my children will treasure them as well. One day they will be too old for me to read to them any more, but perhaps they will remember these times and carry them on to their own children. For now, my children are still young and I cherish each and every moment I get to spend with them, even bedtime stories.
I’m so excited that my flowers are blooming finally. This is my first official bouquet of spring, and there will be more to come. There is no better feeling than to be able to take cuttings from your own yard and put them on the dining room table. And this smells divine. The fragrances of the tulip and grape hyacinths mingle nicely with the lilac’s fragrance. Can I just bottle this up and wear it as a perfume? Yes please!
I have done it once again. Apparently I’m good at feeding the entire neighborhood. We had three additional little boys over for dinner. So. Much. Fun! I really, truly mean it. I love my house being filled with the laughter of children. We had the sounds of the piano, the keyboard, Little Man’s trombone, the Wii, Legos, Bratz and Barbies and lots of tromping and running up and down stairs. What a blast!
My dream has always been to be a neighborhood mom, and when we moved into this neighborhood, I felt that I wanted it even more than ever. I wasn’t sure how it would work with my kids being homeschooled and all. Since my kids aren’t attending the local grade school, it makes it a bit difficult to create some of those associations. I’m glad for my kids, though, to be able to make friends with other kids in the neighborhood.
The last thing hubby and I wanted, when embarking on this homeschooling journey, was to isolate them specifically to the homeschooling community. We wanted them to have broad relationships with people from all walks of life. Having taken on the role of urban missionaries, this is even more vital.
So, when all is said and done, tonight was a great time! I am looking forward to more days like today. Even if it means feeding the whole neighborhood.